I'm so devastated I'm just numb now, making excuses to run back to the hotel by myself and cry until there were no tears. No wifi= no friends. My mum doesn't know, so no one here to speak to. For once in my life, I am completely all alone, trying hard to smile and pretend nothing has happened. I want the safety net of my room, I want my cats, I want my friends....if I even have any left.